Tonight I sat on the front porch and watched a perfect summer rain sink into these green 30+ acres. I’ve been doing some thinking lately about the present moment. I don’t know if it needs me, but I need it.
God’s plan unfolds to the extent that you let it. I am that girl– screaming and resisting while the doctor is trying to give the shot that will make everything feel better. While resisting the cross makes it a chore, embracing the cross makes it the only medication worth having. I realize that I’ll never have all the answers, and as I grow up, the pile of questions grows too. One is answered to have three more appear. Doubts come with much more frightening possibilities than truth; and when you’re relying on your own strength, possibilities become essential to consider. But as soon as I sit there quietly and let God do what he’s known all along is the best thing, I feel the pinch until it vanishes and becomes the joy of the lollipop.
I know some people hate going to the doctors, but I actually enjoy it sometimes. It’s nice to know that someone knows my body better than I do. Isn’t that how it is with God? Perhaps that’s why people avoid church. It’s a scary thing to be known, especially when it comes with “shoulds and shoudn’ts.” But I’ll take it. Someone who knows me better than myself, please tell me how to live my life, because obviously I have no idea what I am doing.
Tina Miller. How I miss you so. I couldn’t have said this better myself. Much love my dear friend and awesome abbreviator!